I know I shouldn't really admit to this being an avid crafter and all that, but I'm really not up for Christmas this year. I don't know why it is exactly but it just seems one extra 'job' to add to the ever growing list of things to do. Anyone who knows me will know that my decorations are normally one of the first to go up in our street. As soon as December 1st rears it's head our Christmas tree is down from the loft and I'm busy making a Christmassy mess! But not this year. I'd planned to make a start this weekend but even that now seems like a chore with the barrage of other things awaiting my attention.
We've been through a tough month and this probably isn't helping in the festive stakes. We found out we were expecting a baby back in September. I sailed off happily for my 12 week scan a few weeks ago only to find that we had in fact lost our baby at 7 and a half weeks. I'm coming to terms with this slowly but I still have little wobbles occasionally (like yesterday when I inadvertently walked through the baby clothing aisle in Asda :(). Add to this the huge amount of expectant or new mom's I see on my travels - I think they've all been sent to rub salt in my wounds.
What with all this and the fact that we're in the process of moving house, I just can't get excited about it all. It almost feels like our life is currently on hold until we move onto new (and hopefully better) things in 2014 and this is what I'm really looking forward to.
I feel such a hypocrite as I'm busy making seasonal plaques and tree hangers to fill others houses with festive cheer and yet my own festive cheer is sadly lacking. I think that Christmas has become so commercial and I know I'm definitely not alone in feeling this way. Our families ask us for lists of what we'd like and I spend time quizzing our kids to then distribute their choices throughout the family so that everyone has a specific gift to buy at the correct price............arrrrggghhh. For goodness sake, it's all got so ridiculous and I'd just like the simplicity of it back again.
I've toyed with the idea of carrying out some volunteer work coming up to Christmas to help remind me of those who really need some festive spirit at this time of year. I'd love us to do this as a family as I think it's something we all need every now and then, a little jolt to remind us of the things that really are important.
Sorry for the moany post, I just felt I needed to get this off my chest. I wonder if anyone else feels like this? If so please assure me I'm not alone. I'm sure as work dies down and the decorations finally go up, a little Christmas spirit will probably emerge from somewhere. I'll keep you posted :).
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